September 18, 2012

High Semester.

Assalamualaikum.
Dear semorang. oh hai hai! lamanya abad tak update blog ni uolls.
Rindu i update kan? HAHAHA. so semorang sihat kan? kalau tak sihat sila bahagiakan diri sendiri lantas akan sihat secara automatiknya. oh btw, kalau nak dikirakan dah lagi seminggu dah haaa aku dan rakan rakan sekalian di UiTM london ni nak habiskan final. YaAllah, rasa macam baru semalam masuk sem yang kedua ni. tuptup! waah. cenggitu.

Kalau nak mengikut nufnangs kan alhamdulillah, earnings still make me smile. terima kasih ye uolls rajin masuk CS even csw tak hupdate hupdate. hewhew :D

korank semua, i sebenarnya nak menyampaikan satu cerita, that i think should make others start think about what this little lady used to say before. Sebenarnya, aku dah selesai satu semester dengan jayanya, sekarang dah nak selesai semester kedua, dan Insha a Allah, akan ada tinggal 4 sem left. eyh! feel so excited to finish this. and proceed dengan next sem, next journey. nak bahagia dengan lanjutnya.

on 24th of june 2012 yang dah past tu uolls, i officially received my DL's award, selain tu dapat roses and bear and officially in relationship! *fainted
nak bahagia sekali tak semorang? ye sila bahagia sekarang. :)


So as that, this csw is now officially in relationship with mr.Boyfriend. 

nur syafira terjatuh cinta dengan muhammad faqruz zaque. So, doakan kami dapat jawab final exam nanti dengan sangat cool okay. itu je nak cerita. ada benda nak post tapi satgi ada kelas, so short post dulu okay uolls. nanti kalau ada masa i'll update more. 

till next post, take care!

May 03, 2012

Trip to A-Famosa (the whole journey)

Assalamualaikum.

Oh btw btw, baru habis masak. Tangan pun dah kena minyak panas, apa yang tak awesome. Awesome lah wei, baru perempuan masuk dapur bila tangan kena minyak. kan bagus kan bagus? cakap bagus sekarang! okay. proceed

So as kita dah selesai prepare dinner dan as satu rumah pun dah bau ikan masin as mak dah suruh gorengkan so kita pun lari masuk bilik, sebab if not akan pengsan kesan daripada bau ikan masin yang agak menyengat tersebut. so as tiada kerja dalam bilik, apart than twitter-ing and text-ing with someone *ehem ehem. HAHAHA saja je kasi selingan yang vogiy the vasss sikit maka kita akan update blog. kali ini gambar lebih teratur dan lebih ada kena mengena dengan title ye adik adik dan kakak kakak serta abang pakcik makcik semua ye.






Insyallah dah boleh dah kalau nak masuk next top model. cara pegang dagu tu dah ada dah tu. hah! nampak nampak? apa bodoh sangat caption aku ni. okay fine just leave it sebab nanti annoyed pulak.
teheee! *__*

rumput golfy ni kalau aku baring tak bangun tu faham faham lah aku dah tidur mimpi indah kat situ. jangan berani kejut kalau tak memang dapat kaki lah.
*serious wa cakap

lepas letih landing landing atas rumput, maka beransur as hari pun dah nak hujan kan. 
anak anak dara tak elok ye duduk kat luar time hari nak hujan hujan.
*ehem ehem no no. tidak elok.


okay gedik sebentar bila ada titian usang yang macam cool kalau nak buat aksi nakal seperti ini. 
=)


BUGGY ON PATH.
*but that buggy tak ada ye masa tu, tukang bawak buggy pun tak ada. 


selesai day one. which is, pada malam hari ktornk sekeluarga plus kakak and her bakal hubby dinner dekat pengkalan balak. makan ikan bakar yang fuhhh! sedap wa cakap luu. serious ni serious serious sangat sangat

jadi kalau pergi melaka, jangan lupa cari ikan bakar dekat pengkalan balak. insyallah. sedap. dap dap! :)

and one the next day, kami pegi A-Famosa waterpark. which is sangat awesome. but not as fun as Sunway lagoon as u guys knw. so just that. tapi boleh lah kalau nak pergi. just for fun. 



so itulah ceritanya. A-Famosa.

till next post, take care.

April 21, 2012

satu ayat akhir mungkin bermakna...

assalamualaikum..

kehadapan tuan puan, makcik pakcik, uncle auntie, adik, akak, abang dan semua2 lah ye.
dunia mungkin berbeza. ada yang pakai phone buatan malaysia. buatan import export. yang mahal2, yang dahsyat2, yang gah2 bukan main, tapi aku tak. aku lek je ye. hamboi hamboi humble sungguh aku di situ.

aku nak bercerita tentang sesuatu yang selalu aku perhatikan sejak dua tiga menjak ni. bukan pasal cell phone yang memahal tu. tidak ye hencik2 semua. salah tekaan anda tu. sila cuba lagi.! jeng jeng jeng.
korank semua mesti suspen sesangat2 kan di situ. duduk pun xsenang duduk rasa macam nak mencangkung kan? yang dah mencangkung tu rasa macam nak meniarap pulak kan?

oke xpe xpe. jangan gusar. jangan gelabah2 sangat. lek lek cool down bebeh!
dah nak start dah ni.
bismillahhirohmanirohim....

melihat kepada apa yang aku kaji selama ni. chewah! kaji tu....
aku xlah kaji ape2 pun. it just aku suke dengan sikap2 orang malaysia. aku suka sangat lah!
dorank sangat prihatin ye. aku bangga betul dok kat malaysia ni. rakyat dia! hamboi hamboi bukan main bagus lagi. aku memang salute lah kat depa semua tu.

bukan main berani tu. dah jelas serta terang dan benderang pihak berkuasa tulis 'jangan parking zon tunda'.
dorank siap boleh buat tempat tu jadi tempat parking kete. bukan satu siap buat barisan kekemas tu.
berani bukan rakyat malaysia?
aku jugak bangga dengan sikap orang malaysia yang sangat tak suka membazir dan membuang masa.
aku cukup bangga lah.! bangga ye aku ulang lagi pakai font besar siap bold sikit BANGGA.
pernah lah tu aku tengok kat depan bijik mata aku ni, ade orang malaysia tu. siap rebut parking kat shopping complex. haduh2 parking lot bukan main besar serta nan luas kan. depa nak jugak rebut parking yang cenoet tu. aku hairan sungguh.! kenapa aku cakap dorank xsuke membazir dan membuang masa?
yelah si A tu baru nak reverse sikit yang si B tu terus masuk parking tu. kan ke si B tu xsuke buang masa lagaknya, kan?

mungkin ar shopping complex tu nak kena boom kot kalau dorank lambat masuk parking.
ke macam mana?




lagi satu yang paling dahsyat dan aku tertanya2 dan janggal, depa semua boleh beratur lelurus time beli ticket movie ngan time nak beli spicy chicken macdeluxe kat mcd tu.
bukan lah hairan apa sangat, cuma time kat sekolah dulu jenuh lah si cikgu tu nak suruh depa semua tu beratur selurus tu. tapi time kat shopping complex, hamboi bukan main lurus lagi dorank beratur.
kalau nak ukur pakai pembaris tahap kesengetan barisan dorank tu, memang susah la.

bukan setakat tu, yang aku pelik bin ajaib serta penuh dengan rasa syak wasangka dan gusar jugak kekadang. bila time sale tu... wah! yang ni memang xleh blah.
korank mesti pernah tengok kan jualan murah yang dekat tengah shopping complex tu. pernah tengok x?
alaaa, yang reramai pegi selongkar2 baju dalam bakul besar contoh2 macam padini buat sale cenggitu kan.
hah! yang aku pelik tu, kenapa mesti dorank selongkar baju2 sampai mcm tu sekali.
siap baling2 baju tu kat pelanggan2 lain tu.
jangan cakap lah betapa jenuhnya pekerja tu nak lipat sesatu balik kan. yang memusykilkan diri aku yang kerdil ni, dorank xleh ka tengok baju2 tu leklok macam yang biasa dorank tengok kat kedai2 biasa yang xdek buat sale? ke memang kita kena buat cenggitu kalau buat sale? kalau buat sale je dah macam terus adat nak buat barang barang sale macam tu. baru SAAAALEEE. kot?



so, that what make me think in a deep lah kan. What make Malaysian sangat Malaysian. yang make them sangat different dengan american atau african apart then kulit and languages kan. itu memang dah sah sah beza. but what make them much much more different yang dari sudut apa special nya! #NP i won't give up


So, aku tulis sampai sini. hah! hampa fikir apa yang make MALAYSIAN SANGAT MALAYSIAN?


till next post,
love you!


p/s : post ni dah lama gila dalam draft. :)

April 20, 2012

akhirnya

Assalamualaikum.
Alhamdulillah at last, ada juga kesempatan nak update blog yang fuhhh! kemain lama bersawang dah. Okay as what u guys know, now all the Uitm-ians sedang cuti so as one of them, aku pun cuti lah sekali. Nowadays, cuti sem tak lah short gilaaa as time nursing dulu. kalau time nursing dulu sem break just 2 weeks then masuk study new semester. such things lah. but as dah masuk government university kita followed this kind of rules pulak. Which is depa kasi cuti panjang2 kita pun ikut. Fine what.

Lot of things happened before this sem break. Which is it makes me realize that we need to survive by our very own in this very unexpected university's life. it kinds like everyone are keep thinking about themselves. i've updated about this kind punya attitude kan which is sangat awkward for me before. sebab dulu time nursing, everyone cares about one another. So that make it different like sangat besar punya beza.

But alhamdulillah, aku makin kental makin kuat makin kacak dan makin berani untuk cakap, what make me different kalau korang do or not doing this to me. so perkara yang sangat general akan berlaku. tak kisah kau sedia atau tak sedia. because it's karma. everyone knew about that. As Islam, aku percaya dengan qada dan qadar Allah yang sangat adil. so what goes around comes around. so tak kisahlah, ditindas tanpa usul itu satu benda yang sangat janggal. but i've move on. As what my mother told me, "LET OTHERS DO WHATEVER THEY WISH THEY COULD DO TOWARDS YOU, JUST BELIEVE ME ONE THING, WHATEVER HAPPENED, ALLAH,YOUR FATHER AND I WILL ALWAYS PROTECT YOU"  *smile

Kenapa rasa janggal? sebab janggal itu satu perasaan, which is semua orang ada perasaan. Perasaan nak senyum, gelak, sepak orang, makan durian, semua ada. Janggal pun one of them lah. Yang kind of feelings yang kau nak ke tak nak ke kau akan jugak feel that janggal. Sebab dah memang adatlah orang cakap.

Understood?
okay! as the title is like that. so there's something i need to make you guys clean and clear without using carnier light. HAHAHA *fine stupid
So as what u guys know, i've quit my nursing academy. It's fully sponsored by mr.government and as i quit i'm suppose to pay for it. as denda lah sebab leave them kan. Tapi two days ago i've received a letter from ministry of health that stated that i've been released from this nursing trining without any charges. As they have do some meeting and site-viewing and dah pertimbangkan my condition and my ex-college condition which is sangat poor, so i've been released. without CHARGES. saya translate kan di sini, saya telah dilepaskan daripada latihan kejururawatan tanpa sebarang bayaran sebagai denda.

Alhamdulillah. that what i've been said almost setiap dua minit selepas mendapat surat. see! takdir Allah sangat adilkan. I've told you! dah cakap dah kann. :')







so that's it. Alhamdulillah, Semester satu selesai. Insyallah 7 hari lagi, penantian ini akan terjawab. 
YA Allah, dari segala mudah dan tenang kini kami semua bertawakal padaMu. Berikanlah kami pelajar pelajar Islam mendapat keputusan yang cemerlang. kerana kami mengaji demi AgamaMu. amin :')

terima kasih sebab pernah jadi sebahagian daripada hidup saya sepanjang satu semester. terima kasih sebab pernah jadi tempat untuk saya meluahkan perasaan, terima kasih sebab pernah jadi gula dan racun sepanjang satu sem. terima kasih sebab tak pernah jenuh jaga saya yang selalu sakit. terima kasih sebab pernah jadi orang yang memahami saya. terima kasih sebab pernah bazirkan kredit untuk saya. terima kasih kerana pernah jadi macam keluarga saya.

oh See you guys! next sem. Let's hit the target. Insyallah.
Ya Allah, terima kasih atas nikmatMu terima kasih kerana melepaskan aku daripada ikatan ini yang selama ini menjadikan aku kurang yakin untuk berdiri dalam duniaMu yang luas ini Ya Rabb. Alhamdulillah. *smile

till next post, take care! :)

a little word : believe me, what goes around will come around.

March 13, 2012

hidup sendiri.

Assalamualaikum.

Dear all of you, alhamdulillah i've done my 2 paper for this semester just now. and Alhamdulillah, i can keep my smile as my top list-must-do every time i've finished up my paper. kata lain, aku boleh jawab lah kan. kira soalan tak lah susah sangat dan tak jugak senang sangat. so macam biasa biasa saja. :')

 As what the title di atas ye kawan kawan, aku tak rasa macam aku nak speaking london dalam post kali ini. So aku akan menggunakan bahasa melayu yang sangat mudah untuk difahami, ayat yang tak berapa nak pasar dan tak berapa nak novel melayu sangat. Maksudnya, ayat yang akan digunakan akan biasa biasa saja. ye?

Jadi kenapa hidup sendiri? sebab dalam dunia yang makin berliku liku macam penuh berduri ni aku tak rasa macam hidup sendiri tu jadi satu masalah yang kena bangkit kat dewan persidangan semua. kira okay what hidup sendiri. tak terkepit dalam dunia percintaan yang kadang kadang merumitkan. yang kadang kadang buat kita rimas dengan dunia kita sendiri. terhimpit kat tengah tengah diantara sang lelaki dan sang diri sendiri. its not like i doesn't love to feel so but bila tengok kawan kawan aku yang selalu nangis je each time gaduh dengan encik boyfie dia. bapak macam "weyh! bercinta bukan sepatutnya sweet macam gula kapas ke?"

tapi as time pass by, aku rasa macam tibatiba aku terpanggil untuk update benda ni dan beritahu ramai orang pasal kenapa perempuan itu diambil daripada tulang rusuk seorang lelaki itu. tahu tak kenapa? sebab perempuan itu dibentuk tak daripada tulang kaki untuk dipijak oleh sang adam yang sering dikatakan kuat itu. tak jugak diambil dari tulang kepala untuk dijunjung kerana kecantikan yang ada pada sang hawa itu. pernah terfikir kenapa sang hawa itu dibentuk dari tulang rusuk sang adam? sebab! perempuan itu insan yang lemah yang sangat rapuh hatinya, yang sering menitiskan airmata jadi mereka dibentuk daripada tulang rusuk sang adam sebab biar ia dekat dengan si lelaki. biar dia selalu berada disisi sang adam itu.

Jadi, kalau kau tu lelaki, kau kena selalu fikir kenapa mesti kau buat perempuan tu nangis sedangkan kau belum pasti yang perempuan tu ke yang ambil tulang rusuk kau? perempuan tu ke jodoh kau? so atas dasar apa kau boleh buat perempuan tu menangis? kenapa mesti? hah! sebelum buat apa apa, sebelum cakap apa apa pada perempuan tu fikir dalam dalam,fikir masak masak. deal?

kalau kau tu perempuan pulak, kau jugak selalu kena fikir,perlu ke kau menangis sebab seorang lelaki yang belum pasti lagi, dia ke pemilik tulang rusuk yang kau pinjam tu? dia ke lelaki yang bakal imamkan setiap solat kau kelak? kalau belum pasti buat apa membazir air mata tu? bukan ke lagi elok kalau airmata tu kau keluarkan time kau berteleku merenung setiap dosa dosa yang buat sehari harian? deal tak?


so as CTU punya paper dah habis aku rasa macam sifat nak buat amar makruf nahi mungkar tu perlu ada setiap orang. tak kira lah yang ada blog ke, twitter ke, tumblr semua ke, tak kesah la asalkan korank ada medium untuk menyuarakan hasrat hati just speak it. let others know apa yang terbuku di hati. hah! macam tu lah. so lepas baca post ni, korank ada terpanggil tak nak update sesuatu kat blog secara islamic?

kalau ada bagus lah! kalau tak ada pegi scroll atas baca lagi sekali.

so till the next post,
do take care.
love, 
fia. 

a little word : tulang rusuk siapa ini?

March 11, 2012

FINAL

Assalamualaikum.
Dear semua orang, saya sangat bangga sebab dapat online walaupun esok dah start final ye. I just wish i'll do something reasonable sebab esok macam kena buat sesuatu yang kena pada tempat dan keadaan. so as the time akan datang macam around the simpang gila gila punya, so i would like to update my ceritacinta's sikit.

so typically, when the exam approached everyone are going to update their status on facebook, tweets, tumblr and semua benda like this,

"..i nak minta maaf kalau kalau sebelum ni pernah buat uolls sakit hati ke, terkasar bahasa ke.. etc etc"
".. aku minta maaflah, sebab aku nak final kan, so aku nak Allah mudahkan urusan aku time exam, so aku harap korank semua maafkanlah aku. k! zero zero okay. "

hah! it sounds like that. lebih kurang macam tu. plus minus macam tu lah lebih kurang.


saya dengan ini pun nak buat macam tu juga. 
i would like to ask for your forgiveness semua, minta halal apa2 yang dah teramik, termakan, tercakap, semua lah. kalau ada apa2 yang tak puas hati. tolonglah jumpa saya, call saya, text saya dan saya akan berbesar hati untuk lakukan yang terbaik semua korank semua akan maafkan saya. dan dengan itu saya akand dapat jawab exam dengan tenang tanpa masalah.

"YA ALLAH, DARI SEGALA MUDAH, KAU PERMUDAHKANLAH URUSAN NUR SYAFIRA AMUR SHAH DAN TEMAN TEMANNYA. BERIKANLAH KAMI SEMUA BETUL!"

amin. :')

terima kasih semua. 
till the next post, do take care
love,
fia.

a little word : apa benda warna pink yang boleh beli dekat MELAKA?

March 07, 2012

middle.

Assalamualaikum.

Tajuk post kali ini adalah post tengah pagi. which is, i need to tell you guys something. that something are so important. which is NOTHING. nothing in this context mean a lot which is, it almost like nothing but its not nothing actually. in fact, nothing refer to a lot of things. okay in conclusion, nothing are almost nothing but bukan nothing. hah! macam tu lah.

pandai pandai lah fikir.
Ada satu perkataan yang you orang kena pegang. YAKIN. Yakin pada jodoh Tuhan, yakin ada seseorang di luar sana yang akan mencintai you.
thanks for lend me your eyes. 
till the next post, do take care.
full with love, 
fia.

February 28, 2012

Final,

Assalamualaikum.
Dear all of you, about the title i would like to make some announcement here. which is for this couple of week i'm going to get into busy-time-session which mean i will sangat jarang update blog, facebook mahupun twitter. *ada orang kisah?
This time i just love to post something here. so this blog will not ber-usang sangat. and not too dust-ing here and there. okay finee all the cricket sound appearss...

oh btw, i'm going to face my final soon. so i'm hoping that i could get something better just like what i've done in my nursing course. macam dean list ke kan. macam kisah kisah nursing dulu. dulu time nursing dapat 4flat pun mak macam tak nak bangga pun, sedangkan it NURSING kottt. susah kottt. macam tu lah kan. :)
so as i'm here i'm so ready not to turn back. jangan asyik nak cerita pasal dean list yang dulu kau dapat ke bagai semua. now is what happening now, not all the things yang dah happened kan. so forget about the things happening in your past and keep moving for better life. much better this kind punya motivation kan!

so as i keep listen to what goes around comes around, i would like to forgive and forget. as the final is just around the corner, i would like to ask for everyone forgiveness, as i'm just a human being, so sometimes i keep doing something macam tanpa usul periksa kannn, so i would like to say sorry for all that things yang kadang2 i know, its annoying. So i'm hoping that all of you are willing to forgive me in whatever i've done before. terkasar bahasa, tersalah bicara semua benatang la, saya minta maaf dari hujung rambut sampai ke hujung celah celah kaki. *like raya2 session kannn
i love this part, when everyone's tears are bercucuran macam tu kan. ingat masa majlis restu ilmu. okay fine LAME!

so last but not least, gambar gambar pautan untuk tatapan umum. enjoy your day guys!

so till the next post, keep forgive and forget. Ingat satu benda Nabi Muhammad dulu siap kena baling dengan sampah each day pun tetap memaafkan. :)
 
full with love,
 fia 

a little word : jangan cakap kau kisah, kalau kau tak kisah.

February 23, 2012

mural painting

Assalamualaikum and what a great khamis kann.

Dear all of you, hello and what a day kan? what a year for just only a short post kan. entah lah csw memang agak busy sangat sangat kat sini with all the events, tutorial, lecture, and sort of things kan. yang macam phewwww!
so today, as my class being cancelled and i've free time so i'll update something here. so enjoy this short post. @afiqah i post this as i remember that u miss my blog kan. :)

did i look like a super manager who are busy handling all the matters with that shades. 
i know i do! thanks a lot for that puji pujian. 

this two guy, are wonderful. 
seriously both of them do. i can't imagine how hard my time here without this man. 

:')

again, this man sometimes drve me insane and sometimes again i feel like jumping around because of this man. because this man are total crazy. 

oh! i can't explain how much i miss my PR!

do tengok this above picture. can u really see how hard i'm trying to listen to that abang AD's explanation on how that mural should be.

its sounds payah norr but in fact, its not that hard but its pretty hard jugak lah. sebab its memang payah actually for all the tourist2 guide to paint something.
oh btw, that pejabat perdana menteri on the left side and the masjid negara are my creative art tau. its quite good hah! *terasa bangga

oh again i would like to promote something apart than my beaatiful drawing. that TAG also one of my hasil kerja. about a week tau nak siapkan tag untuk memuaskan hati ramai pihak. 

pheww!

again this bossy-picture keluar. tapi macam comel lak kadang kadang.
ocuh!

do i look sangat kacak in this picture?
okay tahu, i memang kacak tak yah ulang banyak banyak. i know. :)

and this event going smoothly sangat sangat sampailah saat kemas which for me agak jengkel sebab kaki saya dihimpap oleh meja batu yang sangat berat. maka ibu jari saya tercacat sikit. tapi tak pe, at least saya ada tanda kenangan sempena event ni. :')

*abaikan gambar gambar yang tak penting, saya just nak tunjuk meja yang himpap kaki saya. ini lah meja nye! cisssskek punya meja. 

T___T
 

and this last but not least, hari when my friend and i was performing for LIVE for RTM citrawarna session. it was amazing and awesome. and that night all of us just like a calon calon akhir gadis melayu with all the kebaya. 

taaadaaaa. :)
 
so that is what i call a busy weeks and now i need to focus on my FInal that i think just sikit lagi nak terbabas masuk dalam schedule i. so as what i mentioned earlier saya sangat busy sejak masuk UiTM. so maaf zahir batin for habuk habuk in this blog. tolong doakan saya dapat jawab final dengan awesome as what i did in my test2 before. btw, Alhamdulillah result test test untuk carry marks agak awesome dan membantu saya untuk senyum, so please do keep praying for my success.

lots love, fia kacak

a little word : PR, aku tau kau sibuk. tapi aku rindu kau tau!

January 21, 2012

cerita itu aku tulis.

Assalamualaikum.
Dear all of you, did i tell you guys about my wonderful universt's life? yes i dooo! because for me i just cannot stop to do so. because it's total LIE if i did not.

i had the most awesome time here. with all the beauty queens and great kings here and there, it was extremely hebat sangat sangat. ye begitu! i can do whatever i love to do because who cares kan. kat sini, life kau kau punya pasal, pedulik pulak aku. kannnn. :D

for me,when i fall sick i shouldn't feel worry at all because i'd the most cool room, class, course-mates eva afta! seriously i do. sebab mereka sangat sangat dekat dengan saya, where ever i go. even restroom, seriously. kalau cheq rasa macam nak pi buang aiq besaq kecik ka, semua depa nak ikut. sebab for them, i need accompanied even for me, i do not really need it. but dah orang sayang lebih kan, kita apa lagi, terima saja laaaaa.

so here are some moments i'd sepanjang kat sana sila enjoy.
:)

the moment when i be the-driver-of-the-day.

the moment when i-speak-on-the-phone-in-drain.

the moment when my friend-and-i-waiting-and-snaping without makeup.

and the moment when my classmates and i make a line and click!

that's why i call, glory! when no-one cares about what u guys do. in fact, its up to u and this is the time when everyone use this kubur-masing-masing in their daily life. again, when u fall sick, maybe your close friend is there, but do not expect everyone are worries about u, because in univerct's nobody cares. trust me! no-one.

okay dah la. sampai sini dulu okay. till next post do take care. love, fia.

a little word : aku ingin kamu.

January 10, 2012

sabar part of iman

Assalamualaikum,
dear all of you. lately, perasaan diri sendiri dah tak reti nak bendung, tak reti nak kawal. sikit sikit nak mengamuk. sikit sikit nak lempang orang. pfft! control control. once i feel to do so i keep talked to myself like this,

"fia, come on keep moving, control cun!"
"hye beautiful lady, why u keep put the blame on you, its not your fault what, cool down cool down!"

it's something like that. but not as exact as that lah. but it sounds soo. but in between being cool and that 'CONTROL AYU' sometimes, i can't pretend like i'm fine, because it was total lie. and for me, being hypocrite is not me at all. then, as usual i'm cried again and again. but now, there's no more that SOMEONE to ask me to stop from keep crying because there is no one here. for me, even i'm stuck in the middle of crowd, still! i can't feel that loneliness moving away. it was a BIG i-don't-know.

i'm not write this to express or to tell you guys everything but i need to let this off from my mind so i can keep moving vigorously and happily. *ape kebenda? okay fine! i don't get any point to write this post but i need to post something. have to!
oh btw, did i tell you guys about all the MAN i met here? like ayien, si faqruz, and all the london mates? of course i do. i've told you before so i do not want to repeat it. because it LAME, fine!

everything keep moving as what as i wish, but sometimes its slippery kot tu sebab macam tergelincir sebentar macam tu kan. but for me as i can keep smiling pretending like there's nothing happen, then Insyallah lah semua akan okay kot. because i'm COOL.!*again, that's how positive charge being recharged.

now! here, i'm declaring to guys semua that i'm not going to cry any more any time any longer any way, semua lah! because i'm cool and from keep crying and wasting my tears that are cost lots of money baik i buat kerja more berfaedah kan such as hah! Salawat upon the Prophet ke. it sounds comel right. so why not. other than the-crying-moment-plus-that-running-nose, okay what, plus pahala kan. :')
so insyallah, i should take this as a lesson, so i'm not going to waste anything, not wasting time tears and my teen's. then i'll be more matured and feel more secured to be here as a LADY, this is what i call a life, because i'm proud to call my own as a lady. because i am a lady.


so till the next post.
lots of love, fia.
mari hafal yassin lagi sekerat tu.

January 05, 2012

cerita melayu.

Assalamualaikum.

dear semua orang, harini kelas akan start pukul 4.30 petang nanti, tidur punya tidur, bangun pergi toilet, hantar baju pergi dobi, masuk bilik balik, still! jam tak reach 4 lagi. okay sumpah keterlaluan. dah kau tau kelas lambat lagi bangun awal awal, atas dasar apa kan. *kejam

it just i just don't get any ideas to do anything else except this blogging stuff, so i'm just trying to be some kind of awesome, then i'm writing something here. at least! i did something useful. apart than termenung keseorangan. shut!
oh btw, friend of mine going to start his first day as a BR's employee this evening, maybe its looks like nothing-to-do-with you things kan tapi i love to write about this, this is my blog and i'll write anything. okay dah dah.

and now! i would like to describe my title. *and now, i bet! everyone start to say, "alhamdulillah, habis jugak intro dia ni!" you know, i kind of someone who love long mukadimah right, so no worries. chot! okay as what the others blogger keep mention to u guys about the OR's phenomena i was like, okay-everyone-keep-talking-about-that kannn, so i'm not too sarcastic to say it was not awesome at all but i some kind of okaylah cerita melayu jadi bahan bual. kan again? and now, i would like to make an announcement that gonna make u guys move ur feet and jump like crazy *lagu barat
okay, it just i would love to say that i've watched that missing wavezzzz! translator, ombak rindu. daaa!
this is what i called a MOVIE okay semua orang, its because it was awesome like sangat sangat and i love the way that aoran aziz do his job, sangat macam cissss! real nak mati dia ni berlakunnnn, naik jakun aku melihatnya. so in fact of being jakunnn-ing i also enjoyed the storyline, it's marvellous and hey-dude-u-should-take-a-look. macam tu lah kalau nak describe dia punya best tu.

and for all those things that had happened, cerita 23.59 really2 drve me crazy, apa ke buat cerita terkejut macam tu. but to test ur heart, i strongly recommended you guys to watch this movie. apart than enjoy the movie, u guys can really do free test for ur heart function. seriously! but but and but, this movie is not malay, but i'm not saying english or international movie not for malaysian or what tapi tapi tapi, saja nak bagitau ini bukan cerita melayu but this story us 'LAAAaaaa' ye ada on one of the scene. seriously again!

recently, i feel so alone. and i don't know why, i'm sitting in the middle of the crowd but still! i feel empty. like a dustbin. sumpah! maybe i'm too focus on something that even kiddo can really know that its not going to work but i just hoping for miracle yang macam next-thousand-year going to appear macam tu lah. kalau nak cerita agak agak sampai kelas petang ni start pun cerita tak habis, so let time tell u the whole story. 


so i think, this picture going to be the last part of this post, so that's what i need to say right now. dear semua orang, till the next post do take care.

enjoy this video. this guy appeared as i wrote about this ombak rindu, so i just wanna to show u this man. 
kbai.

notes :
* saya guna bahasa omputih sebab satgi saya ada test english.
full with love from london.